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Very Disappointing news

I am so sad right now .... When we talked to our agency only 3 weeks ago, they only had 2 homestudies in Taiwan.... We rushed to get all our paperwork done in record time and today, I inquired about where we are in line and if we will end up making the 3rd family to have our homestudy go to Taiwan and they just informed me that the final homestudy went today and now we'll have to wait for 3-6 months before we can even submit our homestudy. Disappointed doesn't even express my thoughts right now because part of me feels very deceived by the agency. This is all probably another test, but I am not really happy right at this moment. All the rushing I did today was really pointless. As it turns out, I have plenty of time to get things done. I'll probably have a beter perspective later, but now I am just not that happy. God, help me. I need Your perspective.

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Melinda said…
Pam~ I am so very sorry to hear this. You have every right to feel dissappointed. I pray that God will give you His peace.
Kelly and Matt said…
I think we all know deep down that God's timing is always right. BUT we (especially me) have a hard time reconciling HIS timing and ours. Hang in there friend your not alone. Sending healing hugs, peaceful thoughts, and prayers your way.
Middle-Aged Moi said…
Oh, Pam. I am so sorry. I can't imagine. After all that anticipation, too. May God grant you His peace, sweet friend. I'm here to hear you vent, any time you need.

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